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Hey, you've reached Vicki. I'm super busy or ignoring you-- leave a message.

vicki i dont want him to

Why?

[The next text is delayed a few minutes- he really has to think about that.]

i dont like the implication that something is wrong with us and im scared that he wont like me anymore without his instincts drawing him to me

[ She exhales before switching over, her voice tentative. ]

I'm gonna tell you what I told him. I know it's not the same for you but.. it's just my outlook. Don't go all bat shit on me, okay?

[He swallows hard.]

...I will keep myself restrained.

What happened with me? It's not something I wanted or knew could happen. It's not normal to me because I feel like it shouldn't exist.. and now I'm stuck with it forever, and I don't even know how long forever is with it because it happened and I woke up here and.. [ Sigh, vampire problems. ]

And I can't control it, and I hate what it does to me sometimes, and how it affects me and how people can judge me for it. [ Her glare hardens momentarily, but it's quick to soften and flicker down. She doesn't like feeling so open, but if anyone can relate anymore, it's Morgan. And she wants to help Rome understand for him. ] It's not who I am. It's not what I was born to be. It's not normal to anyone who isn't it.

Even if this whole cutting the wolf thing doesn't work out.. if he doesn't try, he'll never know. And if he never knows, he'll be wondering forever.

And I think he'll always care about you.

How shitty did that come out?

I think it came out fine. You are expressing your emotion.

[He thinks on it for a long few moments, his voice breathing static over the feed.]

...could you be happy with it? Ever?

Hah.

[ It's dry and there's a bitter smile on her lips. ]

Honestly, I couldn't tell you. I just know that right now it brings more pain than happiness.

...is he in pain from this?

I can't speak for Morgan.. but I think he blames himself more than he'll let on.

[Romulus sighs.]

...do you think he's doing the right thing?

I think I'm biased.

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